izzy and chloe said i am a child filled with angst inside. i laughed it off maybe i really am now i am really pissed off. i dont feel like going back next week. i did not tell anyone yet it somehow got out. and i am really really fustrated. because everyone thought i said it. i feel like destroying things now. i need some wood/cement. real bad miss the days of taekwondo were i have proper reasons for whacking things up i should go and dig up my old target and stick it on the wall to whack. people are so super insensitive, i might be at fault but no reason to go around hurting my feelings. hannah did a lesson about loving your enemies and not critiszing. i am trying to keep what everything the bible has to say in mind but i am just too ticked off. I will keep the plank and sawdust thing in mind but now it is so hard to forgive ARGH THEY ARE SUCH TARDS! I NEED SOME OUTPUT FOR MY ANGER NOW i wish diary-x never died i loved their lock entries so i could rant. i dont dare write in diaries cos people dont respect your privacy and just read through it so yes i need to let off steam and scream at something. There are really only this little LITTLE group of people i can really talk to in church and some who i just cannot. stand. dont talk to me unless i talk to you cos now i think you are a jerk. and you know what i have no idea why i EVER EVER considered you a friend. now i can only trust a few people in church the rest, you might just backstab me. i wish i was back in kindy sunday school